Neither Here, Nor There

I believe I was overly optimistic when I wrote about the third space as the place inhabited by two telephone conversants. They are, indeed, neither here nor there; but wherever they are they are not together.

Consider the text messager. I walked behind one on the way up from the subway this morning. She was certainly not on the stairs with me. She was in her phone, the shadow of her self plodded up the stairs, a remainder of flesh in the mundane world.

Was she with the recipient of the text message? Doubtless, in her mind’s eye, she was. She might have been seeing that person’s face. She might have been hearing their voice. But where were they? When a telephone conversation is taking place, both parties are imagining one another simultaneously, so the argument for a shared space is stronger. But a text message conversation suffers a substantial delay. The text messager I followed might have been conversing with someone who was engaged in a telephone conversation, and who wouldn’t be able to read the missive, much less answer for a few hours…!

This consideration has forced me to reconsider my shared space model. It isn’t enough to imagine the conversant, even in real time. You are still not with them. You are alone with the machine. The third space is a space created by technology. It is a dive into the interface, be it a keyboard and screen of a microphone and earbud.

One might argue that this lack of presence occurs even in a face-to-face conversation, however in that case any loss of sensory awareness is made up for in the gain of a second sensor, the second conversant. The third space inhabits a technological medium, which is not the sensed air or seen light. The third space is inside the machine.

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Amber Winick Stikes Again

My favorite art and culture writer, Amber Winick, reviews the new show at the MoMA.

It’s the first time the MoMA has exhibited video games. I’m a little sad they didn’t have Stargate Defender and Tempest. My tastes have always been slightly fringe…

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walking the dog

put the boxes against the wall, in a row, but leave some space in between and against the wall, so we can move around them.

slide around them. we ride around them.
the spaces between the boxes lined up against the wall.

Who’s Your Daddy?

do·mes·ti·cate  
/dəˈmestiˌkāt/
Verb
Tame (an animal) and keep it as a pet or for farm produce.

One of the unintended traits of domesticated animals is an extended immaturity. The domesticated beast resembles the immature young of their wild ancestors. For example, a domestic dog continues to play like a wolf pup all it’s life. It’s snout is shorter, its teeth smaller and its muscles weaker than a mature wolf.

Several studies have shown that we humans are experiencing a prolonged adolescence, especially in the developed world. Our heads are also getting bigger…like a baby’s.

If we are indeed domesticated, the begged question becomes: by whom? In the definition above there is an implied subject: he or she who does the taming and the keeping. Who has tamed and is keeping us? The Man? Aliens?

Should we revolt?

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The Herding Dog and a Lost Civilization

Conventional learning would have us believe that man learned how to herd animals and then bred dogs to help him. This theory presumes three miracles:

(1) That there were some docile beasts at hand that humans handily captured and breed into domestic cattle
(2) That they also domesticating dogs, and that these dogs possessed some sort of inherent ability to herd, an ability that was bred to strength and retained to this today.
(3) That along the way humans learned herding techniques

If you have ever witnessed the behavior of a herding dog, you would have no doubt that this beast has a very strong instinct for it’s work. They are, indeed, born with this ability. It is in their genetic composition. A herding dog will keep the group together without harming the individuals.

The common supposition is that dogs were domesticated over many generations from wild, grey wolves. But any fool can see that a grey wolf is not apt to herd your cows for you. In fact, the grey wolf’s instinct is to seperate herds to isolate a single animal, and then to kill and eat it. So, how was a herding instinct identified, much less isolated and bred into these fierce killers?

It was not. I offer an alternative: dogs are derived from a close relative, or otherwise extinct spin-off of the grey wolf; a similar beast with a very different behavioral trait. Namely, the herding trait. As is well known, grey wolves are very intelligent. If a close cousin of the grey wolf possessed a herding instinct, might not that wolf keep a herd of tasty sheep on hand; separating one or two occasionally for dinner but saving the rest until Tuesday?

Can it be that wolves were the first animals to live in “civilization”? The first species to solve the puzzle of sustenance year-round? Perhaps early man lived side-by-side with this wolf-variant, numbly clawing at the dirt. When humans emerged from their ape-like stupor and realized that they too could do what the wolves did, they dominated the wolves, domesticating the herder who had already domesticated the herd! By using the wolves/dogs and their ready-made technique, humans usurped their position; breeding the dogs into eventual submission and continuing the legacy of the not-wolf to unimagined heights.

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Dreams of Health

I was at a dinner party last night and a friend recounted a dream they had that involved squeezing mucus out of their head. I relayed a recurring dream I used to to have wherein a piece of logic or computer code would be stuck, perpendicular to my trachea in my throat, and I would have to turn it parallel to get it out. After I recounted the dream the friend asked “Was this before the cancer?”

I thought about it and answered “Yes, it was.”

“That’s scary.” she said.

I hadn’t previously made the connection between those types of obstructive dreams and my condition at the time of dreaming.

These last few nights I have been dreaming of solving a mystery. When I finish solving the mystery I go to he bottom floor of the building. There is a hole bored into the ceiling which aligns to a hole in the ceiling above it and the ceiling above that etc. It’s a large building with many stories, so a long channel is formed by these aligned holes. The solution to the mystery comes flowing down from top to bottom, unobstructed.

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Its Happening

For 38 years I was the skinny guy. I ate pasta at night. I lay around. I did all the things that are meant to make you fat and to no avail.

Now, in my 39th year it has happened. A fullness on my belly-button meridian. A slight turgidity around the love handles. And when I sit, a swelling of the shirt, like fluffy dough.

Near my 21st birthday I found myself at an outdoor rave in northern California. It was beautiful setting and the music didn’t stop for 3 days straight; but the Californians did. Around dawn on the first night I noticed that I was the only person dancing. I took great pride in this. New York pride. But there, across the field was another! A black guy, with real dreadlocks, and a pot belly. I watched him dance across the field as I danced. I admired his pot belly. I vowed that someday I would have my own.

But what I have discovered is not a pot belly. It isn’t hard and definite. It isn’t cuddly round. It’s just soft and saggy.

This will not do.

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Cold World

I don’t know why she crept up behind me and stuck a finger in my bum.
It wasn’t the polite thing to do.
And I’m embarrassed by my reaction.
But there’s nothing that makes me feel more like a girl, than being penetrated by one.

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Half-Sour

He’d been standing by the pickles for a good half hour. Everyone who came by and took a pickle he’d ask: “Which pickle do you like better?” and then he’d gesture at the two dishes.

Some hadn’t yet tried both and would, some didn’t even bother.

“This one.” they all said. They gestured at the blue bowl with the half-sours.

“It’s funny.” he invariably replied indicating the other bowl, the one with the full-sours, “I like these better and I’m the only one!”

But that always seemed the end of it. No one wanted to talk about why. He had reasons. He’d been building up reasons all night: the texture, the feeling, analogs, comparisons, imagery and social theory; but no one took the bait.

He’d managed to eat all but two of the good pickles when she showed up. She took one. He asked the question.

“Oh, I like these better.” she responded quickly and ate the last full-sour. Before he could say anything else she walked back to the kitchen and was chatting with a group of girls. They talked and laughed loud. He built up courage and went and stood near them. The talk simmered and the little one, not the one who liked the good pickles, but another one turned to him. “Hi.” she said.

“Hi.” he said back, looking straight at the girl who had addressed him and no one else. He wanted to talk about the pickles, he wanted to talk to the girl who liked the good ones. He knew they would have so much in common but he also knew this wasn’t the right time. Not here in this group. They would all think he was weird and he would embarrass her and then she wouldn’t be able to talk to him even if she wanted to. He held it back.

The girls talked about things he knew nothing of and then walked off as if by some secret, agreed upon signal. He walked around the apartment for a while, looking at bookshelves and photos on the fridge, but no one came and talked to him. They all stood in groups, impenetrable circles.

He left at the same time as a nice couple. He hadn’t planned it but while they all walked down the stairs he hoped it had seemed as though they were leaving together. On the street he reassured himself. Maybe he would see her again. He hadn’t done anything wrong, nothing to be truly ashamed of. If he saw her again he would pretend he didn’t recognize her and never mention the pickle thing. She’d probably remember him and maybe the fact that he had come off weird at first but really was cool would lend him some mystique. At least he had said something. That’s better than saying nothing. Next time he’d be more open, less fixated on things. He wiggled his neck in release. Next time he’d say yes more. “Yes.” he practiced in the night air. “Yes!”

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The Unbearable Weight of Capital Accumulation

We are encouraged to save…to stockpile money. For our toils we are rewarded with a slip of paper from the ATM with a higher number on it. We are told that this number ensures certain possibilities in our life, yet nothing seems to happen… Our days go on as before, dedicated to increasing the number on the slip of paper.

Soon enough we feel as though something is missing. Some purpose we were promised is not fulfilled. Yet the number goes up so it seems the feeling has is misplaced; all is well. Our compulsion is to spend. We sneak out of the office to buy a new shirt. It feels forbidden, antithetical to the ethos of saving and accumulation. Yet, for a moment the weight is lifted and we return to our toils lighter and refreshed. Ready to push the number up again.

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